Happy New Year!
I just edited our New Year podcast and I realized that I completely avoided the question of personal resolutions. I’ve had a couple days to think about it and I still feel the same way. Sure I want to exercise more consistently. And maybe read some books. That’s all stuff I’m constantly resolving to do anyway. And those resolutions are usually bullshit. Because time. And also because small kids. And also because tired.
So I’m going to stick with forgiving myself for not running a perfectly smooth life. I’m going to give myself a break from all that stuff that I am supposed to do: create a perfect capsule wardrobe, go to yoga, make everyone’s lunch the night before, closely supervise the academic progress of my three-year-old, set aside time for self-care. Enough already. I can only do what I can do and what I can do is enough.
So here’s what I want to do. I want to put my voice out there and I want to help others put their voices out there. I’m going to be bitchy and demanding and I am going to stand up passionately for what I think is right. I’m going to spend a little less time in useless committee meetings and a little more time getting to know the people in my community.
Hi People. Wanna get some coffee?
I’ve signed up for a lot of work between now and July. All of it is about building community and communication. All of it is work I love. The last thing I’m going to do is feel bad because I’ve been missing yoga for about three years.
I’m excited to figure out where this Brazen BFF thing will go.
I’m excited about the work I have been doing for small businesses.
I’m terrified to go into rehearsals for my February performance installation and also I can’t wait.
I’m busily writing grants for a political show about borders and boundaries with an old friend and collaborator (the friendship is old, not the collaborator) – performances will start in the summer.
And I have a new solo show that I’ll perform in July. Why yes, I am also terrified about that.
My kids are growing into their world and my husband and I have a little time to ourselves. I really can’t wait for that – both reacquainting myself with my husband and following my kids as they develop their own interests (which will hopefully move beyond making extremely realistic fart noises for stage and screen).
Every year is important of course. But this one seems critical. I turn 42 in March and I want to mark that day as the day when I start again, finding new power, surprising myself with the power I’ve been developing all along. I look forward to finding out what I can risk, what I can accomplish. Ands also what the ugly failures will be. Those failures make scar tissue…which it turns out is pretty damn strong.
Whoops. The kids have school in half an hour and everyone is still in their jammies. Gotta go suck at the little stuff.
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